I know I haven't blogged in quite some time now. Honestly it was a combination of grief and sickness. I was just unprepared for all of it. Take all that emotion and combine it with whatever sickness my body seems to be fighting for weeks on end and it makes for a very crappy feeling Megan.
I know that I missed my goal of writing every day and taking a photo daily but I realize I am ok with it. There things in life that you can't really plan for and although I still do it a lot, I shouldn't beat myself up for feeling a certain way. Should I have sat down at my computer and written about something... anything... sure... but I didn't and the world hasn't come to an end. I'm ok. I'm still standing and I'm moving forward. I thought of a number of blog posts as I lay in bed trying to fall asleep but nothing felt so immediate that if I didn't get it out right then that I would be worse off for it.. so I stayed in bed.
Even though I was sick I still auditioned for three shows. One of those auditions resulted in me being cast at a show at a theater I didn't know existed until I got there. I feel it is time that I try working at other theaters. I don't feel I'm ever going to be truly recognized for the things I am good at where I am now so I think it is time to ....not... move on... but give other things another chance.
Well I started the above portion last week. Since then I've been hired to help out with box office work for a show opening next week, I recorded two songs, started a new class and I got an aquarium in my silly ipad game. These are my big accomplishments :)
I love it when people see that I have a good skill and call upon me to help them. I'm good at box office and if I could get paid to do that I would.. but the hours tend to be terrible because I like to actually act in theater productions.
I know that I missed my goal of writing every day and taking a photo daily but I realize I am ok with it. There things in life that you can't really plan for and although I still do it a lot, I shouldn't beat myself up for feeling a certain way. Should I have sat down at my computer and written about something... anything... sure... but I didn't and the world hasn't come to an end. I'm ok. I'm still standing and I'm moving forward. I thought of a number of blog posts as I lay in bed trying to fall asleep but nothing felt so immediate that if I didn't get it out right then that I would be worse off for it.. so I stayed in bed.
Even though I was sick I still auditioned for three shows. One of those auditions resulted in me being cast at a show at a theater I didn't know existed until I got there. I feel it is time that I try working at other theaters. I don't feel I'm ever going to be truly recognized for the things I am good at where I am now so I think it is time to ....not... move on... but give other things another chance.
Well I started the above portion last week. Since then I've been hired to help out with box office work for a show opening next week, I recorded two songs, started a new class and I got an aquarium in my silly ipad game. These are my big accomplishments :)
I love it when people see that I have a good skill and call upon me to help them. I'm good at box office and if I could get paid to do that I would.. but the hours tend to be terrible because I like to actually act in theater productions.
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